Disclaimer: Okay, first of all I don't ever see this happening. But if it did, this is my little vision of what would happen. This does hit close to home, so please be gentle in your comments. Second, Saban and the Rangers are intertwined in a way I couldn't even begin to describe. 98 degrees sings this song. One other thing-this takes place after Passing of the Torch.

The Hardest Thing
By: Jacqui Beres

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killin' me, it's killin' you
Both of us tryin' to be strong

Tommy stared at road as he silently drove to the meeting place. He shouldn't be doing this. He knew it was wrong and he was doing it anyway. It was late, around 10pm and he had just dropped off his girlfriend, Katherine Hillard. She was the most beautiful girl in the world to him, so why was he doing this? Why was he on the road, on his way to a restaurant where no one would know who he was?

The answer wasn't simple. It wasn't even right. What he kept doing made him sick and yet he couldn't stop himself. He wanted to see her, needed to see her, to be near her, but she wasn't Kat and she never would be. And as much as he loved both of them it wasn't right to either.

I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

He quietly waited for her to show up at their new favorite restaurant. It was a place that no one in their old group knew about and that was what drew them to it like moths to a flame.

Tommy let his thoughts wander as he watched the people from their booth. God they had their own booth. *What am I doing? How did this happen? I swore I'd never do this to anyone that I loved and yet here I am. Why?* But the answers weren't coming just like they hadn't ever other time he had asked himself that question.

*Maybe the why doesn't matter? Maybe the only thing that matters is what I'm going to do about it. How I'm going to fix this mess without hurting anyone.* But he knew that was just a pipe dream, just like this secret tryst was a pipe dream. He already had hurt people, even if they didn't know it. And he would continue to hurt people unless he did something about it. Something to fix the situation.

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you

"Tommy?" Tommy looked up at the sound of his voice. There, was the woman that had tempted him. The woman that his heart hadn't totally gotten rid of. She stood there in a white t-shirt and blue jean shorts and was watching him with a mixture of concern and love.

*This is going to be harder than I thought.* He thought to himself as Kimberly Hart sat down across from him.

"What's going on? Are you alright?" She asked as she reached over and took his hand.

"I have something to tell you, Kim."

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me

"What is it?" Kim asked, but she pulled her hand back. Somehow, she knew she wasn't going to like this. From his expression, she knew it wasn't good news.

"I can't keep doing this, Kim." Tommy told her quietly.

"Keep doing what?" Kim replied.

"Going out with you. I can't do it, Kim. I thought I loved you, but I was wrong. I love Kat, and I don't want to hurt her." He whispered. He begged God that Kim wouldn't see how much he was lying at the moment. He did love Kat, more than anything, but that didn't mean he loved Kim either. He had to choose and so he did.

Kim stared at him. She had a feeling it was going to be something like this, but she hadn't wanted to hear it. The month and a half she had been back together with Tommy had been like a dream come true. But now it was time to wake up and for reality to come crashing down.

"Why?" She asked, tears burning in her eyes.

"I love Kat, Kim. And she doesn't deserve what I'm doing to her. She deserves much better. A whole lot better."

So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending

"So what do I deserve?" Kim demanded quietly. She had never been one for hysterics and she wasn't going to start now.

"You deserve better too. You can't tell me that you're happy with the way things are, Kim. Only seeing each other when Kat isn't around, not being able to tell your parents or our friends? What kind of live are we living together? And it's not going to get better, Kim. I know I hurt you, and used you, and I'm more sorry than you could ever know, but we have to break it off. I'm not going to hurt you or Kat anymore."

"You know you already hurt her, don't you?" Kim said softly.

Tommy nodded. "I know, and I can't change the past. I can only hope that she'll forgive me and take me back when I tell her."

Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

"When you tell her. Are you going to tell her who it was?" Kim asked.

Tommy shook his head. "No, she doesn't need to know. If you decide to tell her that's your decision."

Kim nodded and then stood. "I guess this is goodbye."

Tommy smiled and hugged her one last time. "I guess it is."

I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you